Just Enough Light for the First Step
Let me ask you this question - why is the dark scary when we were kids?
We couldn't see what was happening around us. We would hear noises but couldn't clearly identify where or what they were coming from. We were aware of activity that MUST be happening around us - outside our window, down the street, in the city - but were no longer able to SEE it.
But as we grow up, these same noises and activity become less scary, perhaps because now we can either identify what we're hearing OR we assume it's nothing significant and move on.
But, spiritually, we should still be afraid, or aware, really, of the darkness.
The world is full of darkness, where bad things happen to good people and good people who make bad choices. Not to mention the bad people that make bad choices, a global pandemic, systemic racism, cancer, grief.... the list could go on and on.
But, no matter how dark it may seem, we no longer need to be AFRAID of the dark when we have a relationship with Jesus.
David cried out to the Lord and explained, "If I say, 'Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,' even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you." (Psalm 139:11-12)
We serve a God who not only created the darkness in the beginning, but one who illuminates the darkness even still. So, do not be discouraged.
God is your only way out of the darkness.
"I will lead the blind by a way they do not know, in paths they do not know I will guide them. I will make darkness into light before them and rugged places into plains. These are the things I will do, and I will not leave them undone.” (Isaiah 42:16)
God is the same God for you as He was back then... the same God that walks with you through the valleys and mountaintops. He is personal, real and ever faithful. I have no doubt He will guide you out of the darkness as well, just as He did for the Israelites all those years ago.
You may not understand or even see where God is taking you, but all you need is enough light to take the FIRST STEP. And that's okay. Trust Him and keep walking out of that darkness.